Not anymore I refuse to risk my happiness and what I want for those who do not return the favor. I refuse to make myself unhappy so others can be happy. Especially those who could care less how I feel.
Does this make me selfish?
Does this mean I will only think of myself?
Does this mean I am a horrible person?
In the past I would have told you yes to all of the above. I would have even felt guilty for thinking that. Not anymore though my opinion has changes with age. I am not a selfish person for filling up my cup. I can not be any help to anyone when I am tired, worn out, anxious, or depressed. Even when your flying on an airplane they recommend that you apply your airmask on when a plane is crashing before you help others even kids because you can help more people if you take care of yourself first.
So this year I am putting me first well after God that is. I am going to do things to help me help others. That doesn't mean I wont be there for others because I will. I just will make sure I am taking care of myself as well.